Return of the EX

Well, this is my first blog. I feel like I am late on creating one--but so what. Anyway, today was pretty interesting. First, I attended a luncheon that went quite well. Then, I went to school to create a podcast and then I saw my ex. Why do you always see the person when you least expect it? Fortunately, I wasn't looking a mess! I walked in the lounge and saw him sitting there--looking blah. Blah means average or so-so. Anyway, I honestly wasn't going to speak. What would be the reason? He surely hasn't taken the time out to call, text, facebook or email me. I shouldn't be surprised though- there was a lack of communication when we were dating. So I walked past him on the phone as usual, but when I got off- that's when he spoke. I thought that when I saw him again- I would be ready to jump him and slap him in the face! Actually, I didn't want to do anything. It's like you realize that person is just really not worth it. Trust me when I say he is not worth it. However-- in the back of my mind I am reminded of the time I wasted being in a relationship with him. I thought he would be different. He seemed so hella confident that he could handle being in a relationship with me. He had really good qualities. He actually had GOALS---which a lot of times it seems like the guys I encounter --- don't. I remember asking a guy what his goals were in life and he asked me what you mean..of course that is not all guys- thankfully. Anyway, what I found out being in a relationship with my ex is that he was and still is a coward. It took me so long to understand the problem. He was too afraid to act- to afraid to fight - too afraid to put forth a real effort to make the relationship work. I can't be with someone like that. He would just let things be. I told him he was slacking in the relationship - he agreed- but did not act. He didn't do anything about it - which pissed me off. Even when I saw him today-- he didn't ask much. No surprise there.........